Are you excited?
I am VERY EXCITED. Yes I wrote that in all caps because I wanted to truly convey my excitement at getting very close to launch with my creation - the 1st game from PlayBrainiacs studio ( one of my two boot-strapped startups).
Some background:
Any reader of this blog ( were they to read past posts all the way to the earliest ones in 2009 ) can chart the track of my general feelings of euphoria, puzzlement, realization, hurt, anger, measured optimism and now back to near euphoria. Should I worry about state of my mind? Nope. All my blogs would clarify why I felt how I felt along the way. Which is a round-about way of reminding them of the pain and suffering I have undergone through no agency of mine, who I was before all this started , and thus who I remain after all the dust settles. Perhaps this post should be labeled "Still Myself" but as a title it is a bit of a snooze fest. But I digress.
The point of this post is to :
1. Share I am still as cheerful and happy as I always was despite the real suffering - my core nature
remains although I do not spend as much time online / on social media as I used to
2. To tell the readers that perhaps this may be of use to them as they traverse through any suffering they
may be undergoing at this point AKA the "light at the end of the tunnel" syndrome
3. To annoy my haters and to show them that all their lies and sabotage while painful, have not
impacted me in any way which can help them score it as a victory for themselves.
and not in that order. :D
The harassment and sabotage ( there is so much I have still haven't shared publicly ) this past 13 years has been a distraction from what I really like to do. Added to this was death in my family of someone very close to me, which knocked me out for a few years. It was so bad that I did not even write about my bereavement - which is what I would have normally done to process my feelings.
Incidentally I found this book very useful to me as I was grappling with the death of my mother "The Orphaned Adult" Do try to read it even if you normally do not read "self-help" books because it may be just the thing you needed to read to help process bereavement. I shall remain silent on my sadness and loss as those are very private emotions for me. But one day I hope to share more about my awesome mother who passed in her 80s and my memories of her.
But solitude, time ( and sometimes heart-felt music) eventually heal all wounds if you allow them. Through it all I have been working on my 7 goals. And one day there was hope again even though there will always be gaps left by the death of loved ones.
I feel like I have been warred against for a decade+ . However, I AM happy and EXCITED to move my narrative back to the creative side soon.
Which brings me to my startups. Especially PlayBrainiacs and the app I have developed for the same. I find myself very close to readiness. And I am happy to provide the App I birthed, for your perusal some day soon - much like Simba was presented to everyone in Lion King. ( I kid I kid :D ) And I cannot wait to see how people who love puzzles and logic react to it.
The clock is ticking and I m getting close. I also have a song release in works with my ( real ) Nephew who has been a rapper for many years and the song we wrote for my petition jobs-for-homeless-us-citizens-in-california
And there are 5 more things in the pipeline. Fingers crossed.
EXCITED though.
Written by Ms. Gitanjali GulveSehgal AKA Ms. Gitanjali Gulve Sehgal AKA Ms. Gigi Sehgal
